snoring....the hot weather

since a week ago...there is no raining anymore....RAIN i miss you out so much...(not the superstar..) standing out of the house you will felt like evaporating under the sun....oh gosh...!!! hot hot hot...

having a nap in the afternoon seems to be a good thing once upon a time...but now....sweating while sleeping so uncomfortable.....air cond must be on for 24 hours ...so bad....i know that the earth is dying i hope not to on it...but really can't stand the hot weather....

many ppl is sick these days...me too....sored throat haiz.....
i must recover faster lo....if not can't go for exam with good condition....
exam is coming in 6 days time...fearing...sometimes really freaking out of exam

yesterday chatting about boys and girls....asking zhi wei and chun hao something...i get a lot of info....
i m sry to hear that....NATILLE , i dun mean it...i won't betray you....( you know what i m talking a bout) dun be sad maybe that's not the truth...

i have no idea what to say this day...ntg much happening...juz some peaceful day before exam....
the penetrating exam cold is coming freezing....haiz...
gigiling this few days...for some jokes

a great sadness

喜欢是一种罪吗？任何喜欢的东西，都被世界没收考试这词眼不可以消失吗？因为它的出现，世界上出现了比较许多人因此丧失了生命。为了分数大家有了嫉妒小鱼恨透这个充满比较，嫉妒，憎恨的世界自由也因为这些讨厌的恶魔，渐渐的飞到远方，不再回来了从前的自由，开心，都也渐渐的随着岁月，藏到心底里，不再展现出来了小鱼虽然表面是一个没有伤痛，没有心事，没有苦恼的女孩，但却没有人知道，他的世界里世寂寞，没有自由，快乐，受约束的生活一个人的时候，小鱼会沉默，想着自己的事，静静地听着音乐，享受那音符的跳动，大自然的声音，那么扣人心弦，那时小鱼为以抒发感情的途径。音乐，带动着他的心，把所有埋在心底的话，随着音乐的飘动，写在日记里，不让人知道。虽然在小鱼妈妈的眼里，小鱼不曾是一个聪明，乖巧的女孩，但小鱼关心家人，表达爱意的方法，的确是不同，小鱼不会装出一副乖巧的样子，但有时他会暗地里帮忙他妈妈做家务，但妈妈不知道。所以在妈妈看到的小鱼，是一个不懂得帮忙的孩子，但小鱼只是把伤痛埋在自己的心里。从前，小鱼会找人诉说如今，唯一能诉说的人，都已经失去了联络电话也差点被没收，因为曾经用了很多钱唯一能诉说的也只有日记了，她常常把日记呆在身上，不让它离开自己。有一片浓郁森林有一片嫩绿的草原有一颗老树孤独掌控整片寂静的森林不老去，也不枯萎就像心里的伤痛，挥之不去独自的留在心里没有人知道那种孤独，伤痛烙印永远都在那里曾经的一切，永远都会烙在心里因此小鱼知道，快乐，自由，幸福，使人人因该有的小鱼知道自己失去的，但他不想让别人也失去因此小鱼，常常把快乐，欢乐带给她的朋友，因此朋友眼里的她是一个开朗，没有烦恼的小鱼。自由自在的小鱼，从来都不伤心,但没有人能理解他的孤独。

damn invader part 2

wat the...xxxx....thursday nite me bz doin my project, coz the P.J. Mah nid to check aldi...
at last when i m almost done about 11pm i on my msn .....( i juz on msn) b4 that i din chat...then my fren ask me smtg...then i try to help him oni....there come the damn invader.....
checking what da hell i m doin...pls la...that sucks you know....dun evryday interupt my precious life ...can you? i know you can't....
at last i finish my project at nite 12am....ok...go to bed....
yeah, the nxt day late to scul...get scold again....haizs....no comp for this few weeks...coz exam is coming..after exam i m goin to rush the rest of my project....

this few day i learn to finish the 3zx3 rubis cube...now i m trying to turn it in 1 mininute...i know it's kinda outdate...but now our class started to play again...haha....fun evryday teaching my fren...laster we can show-off...lol.....now wanna teach my sis...later we can have a competition between ourself....yeah....i wanna find the 4x4 but here most are 3x3..others have to buy at other place....aiz...so bad....one thing....my fren get blur blur....after i teach them they confuse which turn and wat 90 degree or 180 degree lol....
btw, nvm try your best, i will teach till you all know wan...so that's kind of sucess in me...take your time....jia you ...dun lose your confident with this things...

nice whole day

morning post for the pieces blog....now posting for yvette,,,,
wake up in the dawn....breathe in the fresh air....so relax...
once upon a time....everything that make me cry,make me sad, evrything just being refresh...
sullen day had past, there came a nice bright tomorrow...
friends is always by your side, they will be there when you need them
days past smoothly, a quite bz english class today,lots of paper work, by the way i get some time to finish my books....then a silly geography class..the "horse" sweating like pig, haha, funny when looking at her; and boring maths class, no chance to have a chance to answer the question, teacher always pick those ppl only, lost interested in playing the :"1....2......4.....1......2.....3" everyone is fighting their best to let the teacher pick them...by the way some of us just do our homework, dun wanna to play anymore....; MML, okay, yeah boring...facing a "pile" of words, sort out the mistake, fill in the correct answer and lots more....bla....; back to class for history class, yeah the air cond had repaired feel cool again....lost the cold feeling for long long time....but after the air cond repaired it seems to be too cold.....going to wear high socks to school...better wear in the suit of eskimo....my place is as cold as the igloo....really( just for me...my opinion). it's a interesting history class...the teacher is good at this subject..it make us understand everything just in the form of story style....what a perfect teacher.....RECESS! at last i can go and eat....i have something soft....yeah....after that go back to class...talk talk talk....okay here comes the bio class that's what i like most.....today we talk about brain...what a brain looks like?? what is the function...what kind of diseases cause from brain .....so cool...hope that we a real, living brain, so that teacher can just open it out and let us have a "good look" in it....(yeah i m scary i know that...my fren say so...) last time because of the pig heart and grill experiments they can't have a proper meal...(some...) they felt uncomfortable...i m so sry for that ....i m jus the way i m ....haha...
going to rush my geography project...tata...see you...

drama...

omg...today drama ...is the most "pro" actors in the world ....practise for 2 times then we juz step on the stage...starting to act as good as we can...Wei wei there laughing when "bathing" zhi wei....lol....btw...so far so good...ntg much...running here and there to find my members...dunno where had they gone....haiz...after that..juz as usual..go to Ai Hua eating with them....
because of the bracelet....usually i m goin to wait for them but this time is the turn they wait for me...(paiseh..)
when i m on the way home....lol....mum wanna to eat...first we wanna go and eat pisang goreng, but it din open on monday...so we decided not to eat but at last we go to Kayu Arang and buy Roti Canai...then 2 sotong...(big) GUESS WHAT??? 2 SOTONG RM16....(vomit,coughing..faint...)
the SOTONG IS IMPORT FROM U.S??? BLOODY EXPENSIVE ......almost can eat lot lots of things ....btw the sotong really taste good...so not much angry....it's damn delicious....
the whole day playing comp...damn happy...hehe....such a long time din on the comp....damn miss the comp...and blog....

further more...i had create a new blog....
www.pieceslife.blogspot.com pls to visit

tiring day...no mood...

early in the morning....wake up and go jogging with my dad....someone enjoys that..but the morning i have no mood ...bloody doom...
later having a ""speacial"" breakfast for myself..get a warm warm bath...then going for my aRt 3xam....i quite like the title this year..but some technic i haven't learnt before...try my best to make it nice...hope that my result is not bad....but something seems to make me annoying...i dunno what.....whole day not in my ownself....maybe the endorphin is increasing again...

later...the whole day raining cats and dogs...ntg i can do...no playing outside...siiting whole day long in the cooling study room...doing the complicated maths...wat sin , con, tan...omg....the whole brain bursting out....
i can't stand any longer doing such complicated stuff..so memorize the drama dialog...amd the mma presentation things...no much interested in comp as last time....seems like ntg to do...except downloading songs....
by the way after the memorising stuff...me sleepy...dizzy...bum into my room and dump myself in my music bed...then unconcious...for 2 hours...then my sisi came slapping me up....( wat the hell...hurting....) asking me to help mum to untide the knot of the thread....(because my sis playing kite and get the thread all together....so bad....) you know the knot is tide into a ball...i can't even know how to untide it...then this is the professional work..using a few hours there...untide...pulling...cutting.....(you can't untide it at least you are really a pro..this is true...you will know if you see that ""ball"" of thread...)

after a few hours of untide work..then me goin for violin again....
sometimes felt so boring with the class..coz i m the oldest in the class and practising with those children...seems like i'm going more chidish and childish....
i prefer last time the violin tcher than this...but having some inner and technical problem...so ....haiz...that makes my life...tiring boring....damn no mood ...
i prefer my life living in the world of songs..
Songs make me found back my ownself..it knows what i wanna say...i can feel what i m facing through...i like Songs...composing is my life too...makes me find back a little bit of freedom for my feelings and thought...


no mood....freedom..and get rid of the great sadness of losing...

心里追温柔的悬念

你的笑是我唯一收藏
纵然背景是一整片海洋
不在乎隔开我们的航程多么漫长
思念让一个人变得更强
只要我有呼吸的一天 你是我心里最温柔的悬念
悬在心上牵动我所有感觉
不管你在不在我身边
坚强的我
有着你最温柔的悬念平衡了寂寞的黑夜
只要想你一遍 连孤单也觉得甜
其实我们的距离就是只欠一句我愿意。。。。
相爱真的可以勇敢的追求吗？？
世界永远的问好！！
always be with you....

bracelet....memorable day 8/4

yesterday...i had gone to put bracelet....at first so uncomfortable...so thorny.....weird feelling...my mum scold me that i put black colour mickey mouse rubber...lol...i like that....you can't take any action to me....by the way...yesterday nite i still can eat but today moring when i woke up....OMGGGG......pain like hell.......can't even close my mouth hardly...if i bite my teeth..then the pain is back...so bad that i juz half-closed my mouth....TORTURING....
i can't eat anything though...so i juz drink HL milk...the whole day in skul...actually that's quite good...so that i can keep down my weight in this few weeks...hehe.....
evryone got shocked when i put my bracelet..lotz of fren is goin to put too...but scared for the pain...haiz...me too...but hope it will be fine so soon....by the way ...so far so good...juz have to be carefull...PAIN KILLER (yell)......sry that i m a bit maniac this few days....
FREEDOM..for on9....now i m stealling to on9 again...mum's out....haiz...so bad....
MEANINGLESS WITH LIFE LIKE THIS<,,,,without computer....

爱你真的很难
爱你爱得很痛苦
那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人
容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
放开手让你走。。不再对你有牵挂
这是我自己唯一能够做的事
小鱼，不再流连于这一条没有结果的爱情河
挣脱着放开执著游向美丽的珊瑚海。。。
让我独自承受失去的滋味
让你飞向你的自由世界
寻找那个占据你心房的她
宽容的我会原谅你也会祝福你
最后想告诉你。。。Ashiteru, Always love you ….
这句话我已经藏在心里好久了。。说出来好多了。。。谢谢你这些天的陪伴。。。

Damn invader….waliu…my privacy arrr…

First I reached home from school…wtf…that invader ask me if I have to use the comp…I said yeah…coz I have damn lot of project haven’t finish…you know what the invader say? She say….pull out the modem…wtf….she dun even let me to on9….how I m goin to do my project?? NOOB!!! So I just do the art first lo….i have no choice….besides that…she still wanna check all my msn history…. if I on9…..sometimes really regret that why I have such a *** who knows about comp….better she is a NOOB…hate it so much…like others they can play or whatever with comp but me…have to go and improve my computer skill of deleting and hide….from the eyes of her…..reali reali reali unlike this kind of attitude….
Bukan itu sahaja….she also check all my inbox mail…..but one things is she is not vry good in English so sometimes she dunno what the hell I m writing…that’s so good if she know…I will go commit suicide….she is the world …first one who so annoying ….interrupting ppl’s privacy and life….dare you ….
PLS LA >>>>FREEDOM…do you know what the hell is freedom?? Let me tell you….F ….R…..E…E…D…..O….M….is not to interrupt ppl’s privacy is the basic manners you know….and dun put an eye on me every second….i can’t breath you know….but If I m dying if you keep an eye on me…then maybe you can safe me..but I know you are not that pro and fast….OXYGEN is what the things I want from freedom…you know…damn angry….i wanna shout but I can’t …wanna cry but no time….wanna runaway but I m an obedient girl in my heart…..
Sometimes you all said that I was a disobedient girl , a naughty sister that dun even care about my sis…whatever….sometimes should I told you everythings?...do you wanna know the real me?? I really love you guys but sometimes that is no use to express those feelings…I m an obedient girl….i help you silently when you were not here…I took care of my sis when you were not home…they dun even blame me for anything…. Although sometimes…they are vry naughty I can’t stand then I will just shout at them..but one thing is you dunno what they had done…and what I had done silently without your knowing…must I wrote down…?? DUN CHEAT MY LIFE…I really can’t stand it….i really need some time to rest you know….sometimes I try to make myself to forgive your innocence but what a childish you …..juz become more serious when I forgive you….i really fade up with you ….
Last things to tell …I m not so interesting with this damn life anymore….i prefer my life to spend in school with friends better than staying at home with a pair of CHICKEN eye staring at me….hate it so much….WARNING>>>>GIVE ME BACK MY PRIVACY AND MY CHILDHOOD LIFE AND NORMAL LIFE….DARE YOU INTERRUPT AGAIN>>>
CARING is not this way you know….this is spying…like prisoner…I m not a prisoner…dun follow me everywhere…and dun ask every step I take…you make my life worser you know…(I know you don’t)
THINGS ABOVE JUST MURMURING..because the ppl that should know won’t even understand what I wanna say….DOWNT-T
FREEDOM…Yvette need it

new hair..and new bed cover...

lol....today such a happy day...enjoying....
today woke up damn late...10am..then my mum rushing us to fetch my sis...then straight away go to have brunch....to PIZZA HUT...we ate a lot of things....damn full.....omg...Burbb...sry..
by the way....my mum spot a nice curtain...and can't stop looking and juz then we saw a bed cover...first my mum say she want to find 2 for my sis..but at last she fail...then i bought myself a "sound of music" you can't imagine how nice it is....i juz pay for my month every week...

after that go to have my hair cut....firstly my heart is throbbing...coz my hair is still quite short then the person wanna cut bob hair........when she start "twisting" here and there...then without a blink...a nice hair style...at last i put down my throbbing heart...quite nice.....better than the first hair style....later mayb will go and cut more shorter.....( r u insane?)
actually i juz taking the hair cut drugs....i can't stop it...so sry...so if you ask if i m insane i juz can said that i have no idea....lol...XD

mum is in good mood....coz i have help her with chores...and she had no change to angry with me these days....i m a good girl....so i can on9 and do my things....but the main thing is homework....wat the hack...the skul is driving me mad with "dozens" of project coming together and wanna to pass up before june....R WE SUPPERSTUDENT?? cant' imagine....(Shake head***)
so Pek cik now..dunno where am i goin to start my work...damn lots...(*faint*)
some more wat listening test, oral test, drama, ......GOD...Pls bless me....hope that i m in good condition...exam is coming gambateh lo...
can't on9 much after i finish my project...have to put more effort on my nxt exam....
85 marks is the minimum i have to get ( mum said so if not i can't go back to La Voce) T-T..crying...

突然想对你说

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦诚只为了朝她狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
你是好人也是坏人
给我的感觉渐渐随着时间而流逝
芬的够狠你才有借口转身
讨厌我你可以告诉我
不要在伤害彼此
这只会让两个人的心衰弱
不想失去一个朋友的你。。

bz bz day...damn tiring...

though morning dun have skul...but when i m home juz i on my comp to do the PROJECTS la.....
till 10 smtg....my uncle and my cousin sis came....coz my cousin sis is goin to the college here to study....bring her to see her hostel...hanging around there....then rushing to tuition...from PJ to Klang...adui....after tuition...rushing again to fetch my sis..then fetch my fren home...then rushing again to dinner with my uncle's family.....the thing i hate is i dun like raining when i m outside....damn annoying...
okay when we almost finish eating my cousin's aunt reach and fetch her to her house and sleepover for two night....till sunday night only she will be back....then monday morning she will have to wake up together with me...6am...hahaha.....
she's a lazy person...btw...lol....
okay at last i m home...god bless me...
that's is my bz day...

besides that....dunno wat i had eaten...till everytime i eat something i sure run to the toilet ....omg...now almost pengsan...i have to go to hospital....i can't stand it...juz rushing to toilet like maniac....shall i say ""Hospital i m coming...""(==)
today typing like a noob....sitting here type and print type and print....walao....
btw...the shit msn is damn broke....dc so many times....and take a loooooooooooooooong time to sign in...gonna bom the msn ....disturbing...and interrupting ppl conversation.....pls la...
PLS REPAIR THE MSN SYSTEM...continuing like this all the ppl will left the msn....
wat a tiring and maniacal day....

today parents day....touching

so touching this morning....
in the morning 7am , me and my dad went to scul...first i m extremely trembled...
but when i saw tcher face...and heard what he said to my dad....i m almost crying...
he said i was a good girl..i m vry serious with my study...ask my dad dun give me too much pressure....wow...so touching...never had a teacher praise me like that...he is the first one....
T-TT-TT-Tcrying..though my dad dunno that i m touching..but for god sake..he din say anything..and said that i have to jia you...yeah...i will do my best....

happy b'day to Wei Wei...pig

sure haaaaappy today recieve so many present....always love you...i have no much time to write here...by the way wanna wish you have a nice day and always happy....we love you....muaks...
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BIRTHDAY SONG....
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to wei wei
happy birthday to you...

you're the best in the world ..nobody will be better....
can't live without you orxx...