fall in love with CHOKI....orxx

dunno why i juz in love with the CHOKI...so delicious each day almost 3 sticks...haha...fat fat di...
but no choice my only entertaiment is eat....lol

nowadays..dun even have a time to write a lot here....
so bz bz BZ BZ BZ BZ....arggh...i almost fade up...
first...art project and ppt...
second, sejarah project and ppt...
third, drama....
forth geografi project...
fifth exam is coming in four weeks time...

yesterday gathering...

ow...yesterday gathering...i was so excited at first..but when i reached there...so boring evrybody is sitting so obedient....watching at our concert video....oh man...

so boring..till all the VIP arrive...then they started to eat first then the small us...the food is delicious....GOOD!...then after eating i run out and have a phone call to szeteng..ask her how's the present...haha...so bad...i m "now" at KL..if not i sure go with you to find....then we all stay outside....me jia ning.. 月神...wan ying....月神sis....we are boring and fade up...so at last when they started to play..we juz stay outside...listening the mad, crazy, pollute, hurting noise that made from them from inside...they are yellin like hell...seems like someone had tore them into pieces....(shake head)

we sat there chating, sleeping,eating,walk around the school, finish my "DEMON APOCALYPSE"..so fascinating.... till i can't stop at last....the world of demon is end...

then after the 2 hours doin the boring stuff...we went back inside when "月神" had woke...he was sick so we acc him...but later he ate a lot ..OMG　unbelieveable...Btw it was a good god symptoms for him...eat more and defeat the virus...yeah..jia you....then we sat down and watch for perfomance of "PROFESSIONAL"...got magic show...dancing...popping...wushu...piano...joke.....lots more....

after that actually we have to start the basketball competition but the staff not yet come back yet..so they wait and outside is still raining like hell...haiz...then we wrote our thought and feeling between this day we sing together....so touching by the time...evrybdy is not wanting the leaving...but...人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺。终有一天会离去的，有缘的会再见！this is the world full of realistic...i wrote a short paragraph too...here is it....

遇见你们

我遇见了快乐

音乐带领着每一颗心

拉近每个人的距离

不管再遥远的你们

我依然会记得这些天

从满欢乐的日子

在我人生中画下最美丽的画

在我的人生中曾经有着你们的脚印

我永远会记得你们的

如果你也听说

缘分就像流星

我们必须保有那股珍惜

那一点的联系

音乐的开始让我们相聚

如今歌曲也结束了

也是我们告别的时候了

朋友，我爱你们。。。
虽然我不曾出现在生活营里，但在短短的日子里，我知道你们永远是最好的。。。
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　ｆｒｏｍ：ｓｎｏｗｆｉｓｈ

有人说世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死,
而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你
我常说如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
总是把任何感情都常在心里
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
现在我已经处在这种痛苦
我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
不要每次唱情歌
眼里总是湿湿的
不停拉扯

sometimes i really can't take myself out of that...
where the hell is ur heart...i dunno...
u always keep away all the feeling i dun even have a chance to know...
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人已经没有人了
想到你想起我
胸口依然刺痛

evrythings goes mad...

these few days...keep watching the phone..i can't even touch it...haiz...so bad....
juz then morning i sms again....first evrything was fine...but then in the afternoon...i recieve a news...that make me shocked....bout frenz...

first to tell....dun be sad....evrything has it owns time to go...juz we dunno when is it....only god know and he arrange for us....but to tell here is...take ur life more serious..and evry moment now is precious...
recall those memories when my grandpa passed away..though i m small but i know that evry moment now is more precious when you saw ur families left....because my grandpa is always working we dun have much time to spend with him...but when he passed away...we can sense that he felt more relax..and have more freedom then last time...he dun have to bz bout work...and we can sense that he was always with us.......something more bad, my grandpa passed away in AUGUST 2004, on one TUESDAY..he was moving the packets of rice to the store....but WEDNESDAY he have to go for check up and do by-past for the heart......SUDDENLY the blood pressure raise and he juz faint...and we are going to miss him forever....though my grandma asked him to have a rest..but he juz wanna work....sometimes sad thinking bout that...but i makes me believe that something that is set up by god...and i meant to be...no changing.....we juz have to follow and be more carefull....

today goin for gathering......yeah....long time no see my frenz....
but i got lotz of things to do..i have to finish it first..tata...

days..past by...

days...this two days...seems like past by with movies....
finish watching "THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL" oh...sounds gorgeous...but juz kept running here and there...ntg much...
Yesterday finish watching "THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON"
oh....wat a boring when the movie start....by the way not bad....u must have patient while watching this movie....

Swimming is my activities during my holidays life...
but yesterday seems like goin to rain...so we juz stayed at home....
i have no mood at night yesterday...
kept thinking of something....
haiz.....

multi-task day""

yesterday go to sunway....watching "race to witch mountain"..oh not bad...
this few days i had watched
"TWILIGHT" "QUARANTINE" "IP MAN" (the best) "DARK FLOOR"
so enjoying at hse..haha..
at nite..when my dad is back we turn all the lights out..juz light electric been cut off...wooo...
then like in the cinema...turn the surround on...WOW>>
JUZ AS MUCH BETTER AS THE CINEMA>>>
sitting at the sofa..comfortably...then take the blanket out...so impress..
juz buy all the movie..n watch it at home together..eat watever u wan...do watever u wan..so enjoying and so relax...

today, sleep till 12pm haha..sry to JUNYI..yesterday put u aeroplane..i forgot to put the alarm on..so i forget to wake up...
juz finish lunch...oh..so full man...
by the way juz now chatting with 3 person..yesterday chating with 5 person together...sometimes quite confusing..haha..but evrytime i juz stealing to on9 ...haha...so cham...
btw.. my fon have to endure till nxt month 9 of APRIL..haiz..
now..goin to prepare things for the drama.
then mayb helping my mum with in the kitchen...
hope that i have chance to on the comp la...

OH YA>>almost forgotten...
I MIGHT NOT GOIN TO THE CHOIR GATHERING....SO I M GONNA MISS U GUYS>>>

i made up my mind...haiz...

u r not thinking i m your fren...sometimes..u don't tell me bout ur things...
i dun even know wat is ahppening around you now...i dunno how r u except u know all things bout me...
i juz wanna know if you r in sadness or something...juz tell me...
BTW i think you won't so...coz u have some1 more important in ur heart...
maybe i m the stupidest wan...to believe miracles..will happen between us...
haiz...
p/s kian: go to find out at my other blog...something for you...
i m gonna disapear for awhile...

maybe...still in "jail"--my phone

my darling phone i can't set u freedom so sry...
i try my best to safe you out..from spying
now i m controling..so if anyone here..pls help me inform my darling "husband"--qin wei..

i m missing you guys since i leave the choir..haiz...
now fon got trap...haiz..more sad..can't complain with anyone bout my bad luck day...
hello..god pls help me here..from the suffering days...

same as usual...i need freedom...that's all i need nowadays...
gotta go tata...

bad luck day

i m stealing to on9 by now...
my hp has confiscated by my mum...so i had no fon to use...so so sad..T-T
damn a lot...
TO GET MY PHONE BACK:
RULE 1: not to bring my fon to the room at nite...==
RULE 2: not to use more then rm30 per/month....(S.O.S)
RULE 3: not to sms so much with some1...
RULE 4: not to get bad result after sms...(hello..sms..will affect my study meh?)
RULE 5: dun disturb ppl by smsing with ppl...

sometimes mayb it's true i really disturbing some1 mayb makes some1 annoying bout that..but i m really sry bout tat...i can't keep my feeling in my heart when i m sad or happy or angry...

p/s for piggy: sry...cnt sms told u this..dun pick up any phone call..
p/s for kian : sry too..
p/s to junyi: be carefull..
p/s to ernest: you too..i m sry to put u in trouble..
p/s to qin wei: i can't contact u this few days..hope u can tell me when r u coming to my house...i m bored out...
p/s to jijia: hope you see this..n try to contact qin wei..
P/s to my dear fren: mayb u all can't contact me this few days...i m so sry...i m trying my best to get back my fon...then hope evrything back in normal..

HERE TO APOLOGIZE TO EVRYONE THAT MAKE YOU ALL IN SUCH A TROUBLE...

holiday....

though it is holiday now... evryday at home still have to study...
coz of the damn ugly result i got....i can't forgive myself for that...
Besides that ...drama script, project, online homework, blog for homework, folio.....
adui...i m bz till mad di...my dear frenz are all on vacation...haiz...
some working..some holiday at thailand...some go shopping ...me ....so sad...
sitting at home alone.....haiz..lonely..

oh ya ya....yesterday when i got my result me cry like hell...the first time in my life cry for marks...the first time...
din happen before...i dun care about that ...
damn tired yesterday....
so sleep damn early...gonna apologize with someone..cnt sms wit you..haha..
b4 that...i go tuition...but my mum park the car across the road so i have to go across the road lo...then i nearly knocked down by a car...i m middle of the road di..he still wanna drive through...haiz...
actually i m goin to punch him..but there is lot of ppl there...i juz leave it...
damn painfull my leg now...
haiz..have to go and write my script di..tata...

finish..evrything...

yahoo!! 2day juz finish exam...
BUT i can't go out with sze teng they all..go singing k there...watching movie...
enjoying themself so much...
1 reason...have to go to dentist...
2 reason...my mum dun let me sing k...T-T
3 reason...forget di...(paiseh)

by the way...dun tell my mum...actually 2day, geography gonna fail....
so hard ....my head oso burst di...
btw biology is quite easy peasy...
hope that the result will good la...

yesterday...afternoon...my mum when out to fetch my grandpa back home...
so i m alone in the hse..
smsing with "fren" frm 3 smtg (i think)--6 pm...
my fon is full fill with msg...
it help me to lose my "tiredness" and "Boringness"

now juz finish piano...with the cotton in my mouth..haiz...
juz finish cabut gigi...a big big hole there...

let go...

Wat's love to me?
Wat's love between us?
Or there isn't any in our life?
Or it's changing all the time?
To forget u by let you go...

haiz...so sad...
yesterday argue with the smallest sis...
she is so so so so naughty...the face let me wanna beat her...
at last i can't control myself...my textbook "fly" to her face...
then guess wat happen???
yeah...she cried....
i m a bad sis actually....i m not good
Dare one of them make me angry...then they will know what will happen next...

come again...

why my life is so meaningless..??
now sitting there study frm 1pm till 430pm di...
haiz...i hate CHINESE so much...memorise lot lot of things...gonna faint...
i more interesting in the chemistry and bio...

Juz smsing with "FREN" all go playing and have fun during weekend..but y me...??
so sad...T-T...miz you so much...
i plan di...the last day of exam i m goin to go singing...and on the comp...then finish watching my drama and movie...
DARE ANYONE DISTURB ME.......then u are doom...
i will cut u into pieces...

AFTER CHINESE AND CHEMISTRY the nxt day is MATHS...
aiyoyo...the weakest subject of me...
gonna gambateh..figure the answer in two hours time lo...
y should the world have 1 2 3.....
y should the world have numbers?
y should the world have EXAM...
y should the world..........

Y shouldn't the world have freedom for me?
y shouldn't the world have fun for me?
y shouldn't the world have something for me to enjoy myself now...
haiz...
gonna gone mad if keep typing y should/shouldn't....
k lah..gona continue study....
if not i can't get my NEW PDA and STEREO the is now kept by mum
and the most important choir...

wake up early again

haiz...now 421am...naughty me wanna use comp again at midnite..so cham...
evrytime my blog post at midnite..if not the time when my mum was not at home i can't touch my darling comp
this few days exam....OMG yesterday physic is quite difficult to me...but at last i managed to finished lah...hope i can get nice result...

tuesday is chinese....haiz...lotz lotz things to memorise...hope i can finish that la...yesterday almost fall asleep when reading...
i dun like this subject vry much la...coz lotz of things memorize..reali torturing..

so sad that now waiting for miracles lo...
hope that someone can tolong me...
gonna write at the other blog di..tata...
c u all later lo

now...

haiz...yesterday forget to send post...so evrything vanished....coz my mum suddenly came back...
BTW...yesterday i m study study study study .....haiz...my physic.....why my maths is like shit.....??? But yesterday history is easy peasy...haha....the first time...

yayaya....complain here....yesterday i reach home at 1pm smtg....when i reach home my mum throw all my things out of the wardrobe and ask me to put it in again...then ask me to wash up the dishes and bathroom......hey wat is the earth goin on....??while i m doin the chores she sat there watching television....WAT ON EARTH IS GOIN ON?? UNFAIR>> did i owe her???

now...juz woke up..got to go study later...
hope this time i can pass my exam with flying colours....
if not...i m goin to say goodbye with LA VOCE....i will be damn boring during sunday if i lost LA VOCE...it's part of my life....(if i din c the person)

BTW...nowadays...during Sunday i seems to be so free and lonely...sat at the sofa so comfortable reading the story books....another follow another...hello give me smtg to do...i m freaking out....

short hair...

two days before i go and cut my hair di...i cut it in to short hair....actually i wan to cut the bob hair style but the person smtg wrong..go and cut till like 80's centuries girls head...by the way when it grow long then it will be better....

That day wednesday, the "Sexy Lau" when psycho di....smtg unbelievable is he had married....
This is a BIG CASE...he said he have a kid too...hey person like him also married..try to imagine lah..how his wife is....

Yesterday, like i spot...evrybody got shocked of my hair...evry1 ask me why..haha...juz told them i suddenly wanna cut wan...
actually i dunno why i wan to cut...when i having my nap in the afternoon suddenly the phone rang then i woke up...then the flash "cut hair, cut hair" jump out in my mind....

aiya, 2day is the first day of exam di...so excited...
but i have to get good result....that's wat i wan...
evry1 gambateh lo.....HISTORY AND BM we are coming ......

so down...

when i saw u guys comments...i m so touch..hope we can keep in touch like this...
this few days...vry down..coz of the seprate...
hope evryone is going back to choir...
dun think that not fun..although not fun also can play with frenz...
sometimes...i go choir..is to spend my time there...
i can know that someone is working now is bz la...
mayb to us , students is a way to spend time, for workers they think waste time la...
btw..i hope that evryone will be back...
miz u guys...
hope evryone ~~ happy always...~smile..

sometimes i hope i can see u again but seems like the dream had vanished...

thx..all of you guys..

hey thx guys..i feel more better....actually the ppl give me the conclusion wan..is .....haha..you all know de...but that's a secret...
i saw jin jing's blog...OMG so touch...me almost cry out di lo....
although i juz meet you guys 1 month only..coz i din go for the camp last holiday...so bad....
but i meet you guys too...you are so good and nice....so easy to go on....
at first i m still scared that i will be left out....but i got the conclusion after this concert...i m one of you all...espeacially wen the second time i go for practise

I met PIGGY( AH CHU)
he is a nice guy always teasing LELE....so i got know of him....
one time he singing and his action so "rude" and hit my mouth...then start to beat him..haha....all those are a nice memories...
then he always talk something that make ppl angry...btw he is vry nice...

I met KIAN
haha....he is a nice and "pretty" guy...
he so love his hair...juz met him by the time i m talking with KIMKIM
then we started our converstation...
first i met him...i thought that he was a lonely and hardworking study guy..dun like to talk much..
but conclusion is he is try to be quite...haha

I met HUI QI
she is a pretty girl...so good....take care of me..haha...
but gonna miz her so much...
coz she is standing bside me and LELE so time past di...we get know each other lo...
actually she is a caring person...when i m not well she will take care of me...make me so happy

I met JIA XIN
LOL...when you meet her you wil know how nice and fierce she is...
you will find her if you hear a speacial voice of laughter..her laughter is vry cute...
she is the "HEAD" of the choir...
when she is angry...OH NO>>>tiger....

I met JIA FENG
oh...he is a funny guy...
at first we dunno each other...then one time i m talking to LELE...
then he pull LELE and ask her m i ""HUN XUE"" haha...
then i told him..long long long time time time ago my greatgreatgreatgrandmother is SIAM
so mayb i have a look like SIAM lo....

lol...and lotz lotz more....such like JOSHUA, HAN KAI, FATTY,JIA HUI, WAN YING.....
gonna miz them so much...hope that the celebration party i can meet them the one last time....

i got the conclusion...

at last i know wat m i goin to do...
i know i m annoying..that's true...beside vanished i m not going to disturb you from today...
you can say i m selfish..but i can't help for that....i can't accept myself....
i know you are a good person...mayb nxt time we will juz be stranger...
good luck and all da best for you...

you guys mayb dunno wat i m writing...nvm the person i wan to let him know get know about it...
that's my fren...ntg more...
i m sad by the time now...
wat i can write is like this...
i have to go...
vanished myself...


if i m good and back again..i mayb forget you already...at last i miz u..this is the last word i can say...my best pal. my fren...juz for you to know i m ready...to let go...and go my own..without you..

so sad....

today is the second day after leaving the concert...evryone is fill with sadness...missing each one..
listen to the song...like ah zhu said we are all goin our own way after this days...
i m more sad..."sorry" that's wat my feeling now....
feel so sorry to someone...hope that he can read this...
i m annoying i know...so sorry...i will vanished for awhile....so sorry....
i can't help myself....if not i m not goin to study my exam di...kept thinking....

ya...talk about exam....haiz.........
so bad..this time gotta study damn hard if not future days will be reali bad.....
later the first period of class got test...OMG>>y this day almost evryday test,test,test,,,......
i m goin to become sot- pluck........yestesrday whole day study..my head is going to burst di...

sadness...n missing you guys...

haiz..yesterday is our last concert....it's so happy that so many ppl come and listen and support...
hey i love you guys that come for the concert...u r reali my best fren....
but i hope that yesterday won't go so fast....coz..that's the last time i can see my chung hwa fren...T-T...gonna miz them so much...

when the time i left the scul....my heart and think was ful of sadness....i can't help myself out of that sadness...i have no mood to eat my supper when i reach home...i juz straight away go to my room...put down evrything....juz go for bath...then keep recall those practise with chung hwa's memories....haiz....that' s a beautiful memories...all the way...
i dunno if i have chance to see them again..but i hope so....realiiiiiiiiiii reallliiiiiiiiiiiiiii hope so....
i wil stop my choir from today til i finish my evry exam...(pmr and UEC) ---that's wat i told to do...tat's why i reali miss you guys vry much......

this few days i calm down my "angriness" di...
i feel much better but dun let me smell smtg in STRAWBERRY flavour...i will sure vomit in front of you...haha...just kidding...but i reali dun like that...